then that I had forgotten now. In a lot of ways I have allowed my fears to take over my life again. Fears of never being enough, of not knowing what the future has in store for me, of making the wrong choice in my life and relationships. When I wrote that blog post I was in a high vibe state. I was motivated and ready to take on the world. I was working out, working on my spiritual life, I was working hard to conquer my dreams. However, then I allowed myself to get in my own way.
This week I got a good dose of my own medicine. I was at Six Flags over Texas with my family, standing in line to ride, The Riddler. For those that are unfamiliar with this ride, it is an incredibly tall contraption that spins as it swings you higher and higher into the air. It was terrifying to stand there and watch as they filled the seats and sent people swirling (while screaming) into the sky. I will be honest, for a good solid moment I almost chickened out and pulled my step dad from the line to move on to the next one. Then something magical happened. I took a step back and realized that my fear was getting in the way of me going on a ride that I was really excited for. It wasn't that different from other rides that I had ridden before. No one was crying or seemed to be hurt from the experience. It was simply my own mind standing in my way. So, I took a deep breath and pushed my self farther and farther into the line, one step at a time. End result? I had a freaking blast with my step dad and made a wonderful connection with the girl who sat next to me. I went hurtling through the air with a huge smile on my face and was so proud of myself in the end for pushing myself to getting on. This very instance reminded me of just how much fear stands in the way of me going after the life that I want and has the potential to turn out as a very great experience for me. We encounter things everyday that test us and ask us to push past our comfort zones. I am terrified of heights. To the point that I cannot ride the Farris Wheel without having an anxiety attack and crying. Yet I will be in that line to get on it if my family decides to ride it. I am also deathly terrified of clowns. This past Halloween, I went with my friends to project fear and ended up almost hyperventilating in a ball of tears because I was surrounded by clowns in a strobing room where they would get closer and closer. They literally broke character to ask my friends and I if I was ok and to make sure that I was still breathing. I knew they would be there. I was a knot of nerves before even entering the building. However, I love haunted houses and knew I wanted this experience with my friends. We bonded so much through that night but it never would have happened if I had let my fears get the better of me. I guess what I want you to take from this is that there will always be something to fear. Getting a new job, talking to that boy or girl you have had a crush on for the longest time, leaving a toxic environment to enter a world of unknown possibility, trying something new. The fear will always try to stop you. It is your minds natural instinct. You get to chose though how you will proceed and if you will allow that fear to get in your way. You are right, you don't know what is waiting on the other end. Is it worth is though if you never get the chance to find out? Are you missing out on a wonderful opportunity to grow and experience something that could potentially change your life? The choice is ultimately yours.
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