As I got older, I realized a few things about myself and the way that I choose to express myself through how I look and act. I , like way too many others, am a victim of rape and sexual assault. I have had issues with men my entire life with trying to take advantage of me and my body. I am not saying this for pity or attention. I am saying this because I realized that growing up I would hide myself behind baggy clothes and a boyish image in hopes of not being noticed. That maybe I wouldn't be as attractive or pretty if I hid myself away. I had a very unhealthy mindset when it came to my appearance. I didn't want to wear clothes that showed off my figure or showed a bit to much skin. Hoodies where my comfort zone even then the middle of blazing hot summer. It took a lot. Me moving into a totally new environment with women who are strong and very strongly feminine to show me that being feminine doesn't make me weak. That being feminine doesn't make me any less of a human with the ability to say no and for no to mean something. I am going to state now that I am by no means writing this as a bash against masculinity or girls who dress with a more boyish charm. Everyone is amazing and perfect within themselves and if that is what you vibe with then freaking rock it. Express yourself the way that YOU feel is the most YOU! For so long people have been extremely negative toward the word 'feminine'. I can't tell you how many time I have been told to 'stop being such a girl' or 'to man up'. I have heard this applied to both men and women and it infuriates me to no end. It is ok to like the beauty of the world around us. To be in touch with your emotions. To be nurturing. To embrace your own beauty on the inside and out. This doesn't mean that you can't also be strong, protective, confident, fierce, and slay at life. I am a strong believer that everyone is equal parts feminine and masculine. We all just express them differently. We shouldn't be shaming anyone for who they are. Instead we should be lifting them up and loving them for being who they are. For being themselves even if the world might now agree or understand. You can see this beauty in the world around us. If you take a step back and look around, our world is gorgeous. It give us everything we need to survive. I gives us oxygen to breathe, food to sustain us, light so that we can see. It literally protects us from going extinct. It is also incredibly powerful. It creates storms, intense heat, and tsunamis. All of which nurture it and make it even more beautiful. Our trees grow and flourish, producing beautiful flowers that live through these storms and come out just as beautiful, if not more so, on the other side. We all go through our own storms that build us into who we are today. You would never patronize a flower for being the way it is, so why are we doing it to eachother? Now a days, yes, I am all about wearing a dress and getting dolled up every now and then. I paint my nails, do my hair, and will flaunt some cleavage in my adorable heels. I am very in touch with my emotions. I am nurturing to those that I love. However, I am also tough. I have gone through some shit and it has only made me stronger. I am all for action and horror movies. I have no problems getting muddy and you can bet your ass that I will fight you if you cross the line with me or someone that I love. I own my tough masculinity just as much as I embrace my gentle feminine nature. I am both beautiful and fierce, and I own it.
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